I often sit and wonder if my father and mother feel any guilt from one of their children becoming an addict, this thought crossed my mind because I am involved with other parents of sons and daughters I know that are using and they seem to be somewhat filled with guilt themselves.
Do my parents think they are responsible in some way like these other parents do, I think it is time to ask them and let them know that they were only responsible for me when I was a child.
I alone chose to do drugs in my adulthood, it had nothing to do with them.
I was living a relatively good life, had a steady job, was in a good relationship with a woman that I felt so lucky to have met but I still chose to use drugs.
There wasn't anyone there holding a gun to my head telling me to use, after the first time in rehab you would think that would have cured me in a manner of speaking, but no I went out again within a few months.
It was my choice and mine only, it was my willingness to try any drugs that came my way, it was the crack and how addictive it was that kept me using over and over.
I came to believe a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity, I would have to be insane still if I believed it was anybody else's fault but my own.
I am in charge of my life and I made the decisions to get me to where I am today.
Yesterday wasn't that great.....Today was not to bad.......Tomorrow will be even better if I make the right choices, choices that my parents taught me.
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