Tuesday, April 24, 2007

THE TRUTH, NOW WHAT?

When I first started to tell the truth about what was going on in my life and why I was losing so much weight, missing so much work, etc. etc., I think it was a time for me to step up.
I am thinking back right now and I needed to fix this for myself, I needed to find the remedy for my problem and it sure wasn't easy. I always came up with an excuse to use again but deep down I wanted to quit that's why I started to open up.
I can still remember my better half telling me to wake up early and call people and places like the detox and rehab centre's to get it started but I had used the night before so I would sleep in so it was a fight again.
I always wanted the help, but the addiction is so powerful that I needed support.
I think that the best thing for me is the love and understanding that is needed once someone confesses, don't get me wrong, there is a difference between that and using someone to continue on with the addiction.
give support, give love and direction, I was one that needed that to step up and think that I was worth it to myself and these people, give advice and try to give someone you know the power to tell you how they are feeling about the drugs and their use.
It may be clouded over by their use again but if you are there for them then maybe it is what they needed to get them started, don't pretend everything is alright because you don't want to cause waves, get in their head and let them know that you are there to listen and to support them but only if they are going to help themselves.
Okay here I am pussy footing around myself.
Let them know that you know the truth no matter how much b.s they keep giving you.
Push the facts at them. It is pretty obvious to you and everyone else that something is wrong.
It is the love that we feel for our loved ones that keeps us from saying what we want.
What do you want? you know but you keep dancing around the truth and when you leave that person you feel like crap, well don't you?
We never liked living the life of an addict, we were caught in a life with a tunnel with no light at the end of it. Be that light if only dim at the beginning but if one comes in the direction then become brighter and show them you are there.
I am not the answer to anyone who is suffering from addiction or the answer for someone that knows a person. I am only putting down my thoughts in hopes that it may help.
Why would we say something to someone we didn't know who was hurting us but to the ones we love we don't, think about it?
I stopped pussy footing around, just said what was on my mind and I finally got some kind of reaction, it was tears and a face that was filled with sorrow, mostly because of the drugs but those tears were real and the pain I felt.
Sometimes we have to hurt the people we love to let them know how much we love them.

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