THE REWARD IS SELF RESPECT

I got paid today. Usually this is just payday but for some reason I got the urge to shop.
When I got to the shopping mall and started to look for a pair of shorts, well I tell you, there were so many cloths. I wanted to buy just about everything that caught my attention. I thought to myself I can't afford this but then I realized that I would spend a thousand dollars on drugs in a few days so why not buy myself something. I walked out of there with sandals, 3 pairs of shorts, 3 shirts and some bones for my dog.
I haven't felt that good in a long time, it is so empowering to be able to do that for myself and I only spent 100 dollars. This is my reward and I missed this, just to be able to get for myself the everyday essentials and I feel so good in my new cloths.
This is something that you deserve for yourself too and you can do it if you play it through, remember what the comparison is, having money for everyday living vs having no money at all, not even for something to eat. This will be your reward too and you will have the power of your life back again, no chaos just life and what you make of it.
Life isn't always roses for me but at least I am working with a mind that I am in control of not the drugs. The rewards are starting to come in now with a little hard work.