HAPPY FRIDAY

I don't know what I want to say right now, I just wanted to write.
I was watching Interventions on TV and it was on an alcoholic and the affects the alcoholism has on the children and the rest of the family. It is funny how we as addicts or alcoholics think only of ourselves when using and don't realize the devastation it has on the people around us.
My girlfriend still has the affects of living with a drug addict, she doesn't trust me totally yet. If I was to stay out longer than I said I was going to stay out then she has anxiety attacks on whether I am coming home at all. She would have been crying for hours and it really shows on her face and I feel her pain. We need to think about the others that are affected by our drug use. We need to make things different and to understand that in order to change and grow from where we were we need to look at the destruction we caused and the pain we put our love ones through.
This kind of thinking only reinforces your tool box of things you need to stay clean and sober. They are really important tools so whenever you feel weak and are thinking of using take one of these tools that fit the occasion and fight those cravings, fight for your life.