THAT DAY AND FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE

What do you think is the reason that you keep going back to using and just can't stay clean is?
The consequences are always the same if not worse but we just keep using over and over. I would want to quit one day and the next day I would be calling the dealer and repeating the same thing over again.
I think you have to be realistic, you have to figure out what makes you go out and buy. Make a conscious effort to figure the reasons of when you buy, whats happening at the time, did you just get paid, did you go out and borrow money, what time was it, when is the time your most likely to use. I myself would start to romanticize about the next high until everything that I was building up to fight the cravings were gone only to realize that there really was no romance and that the nightmare was just about to begin again.
I want you to start one day when you have just had enough and give it your all. Don't give in so easily, you never did when you wanted to get drugs you would put every effort in to get something I know I did that's for sure. Figure it out, you know when your getting money so don't tell me you don't. Tell the people you love not to lend you money and the reason why( remember now you really want to quit) Stop yourself when you know that you are getting money and you start to come up with b.s reasons of people or bills that you need to pay so that you have enough left to buy drugs with.
I just want you to wake up the next day with the feeling that of power, power of having a little control of your life again.
Play it through, that means the good part too, the rewards remember. You woke up with the money in your pocket, in your bank account or you might of even have bought groceries or paid your rent... THERE IS NEVER ENOUGH DRUGS TO LET YOU LIVE A NORMAL LIFE AND MAKE YOU HAPPY BUT THERE IS ENOUGH MONEY TO LET YOU LIVE A NORMAL LIFE AND BE TO BE HAPPY BUT ONLY IF YOU BITE DOWN AND FIGHT. Fight the pain , fight the cravings and be the person you want to be.