ITS ALL UP TO YOU, WITH A LITTLE HELP

I just wanted to tell you a little more about myself and the road that I have been on for the last two years. In order to continue with the company that I work for I had to sign a contract to go to a drug and alcohol counselling company that would monitor my progress and has the power to send me to get tested at any time they wanted. I would have to go to a lab that day and submit a urine sample. If I failed I would lose my job, I have been tested about 10 times through out the 2 yrs. On May 15Th/2007 I had completed my 2 yr contract.
My last meeting with the counsellor was very empowering, he asked me, now that you are done with the contract that the company had on you what do you think is going to stop you from picking up again? I thought about that question for awhile now and it dawned on me that it wasn't the testing or the job that kept me clean it was the love of me and my love of life. There are other jobs out there if I had wanted to continue to live that life of lies and chaos but I don't want that. The life and outcome of a drug addict never changes except for death then there is no hope.
It was great having the support of the counsellor there to talk too and the way they really seemed to care about me as a person.
I have had the chance to use since with no consequences but the guilt I would feel or until I would hit bottom again not to mention letting myself and everyone else I know down.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I know that you really want to quit this messed up life and live again and you can, you really can do it I have faith in you.
We as addicts are very strong determined people and we are survivors so SURVIVE.
Just remember to start to compare the two sides of drugs, using and not using and play it through and that hopefully will keep you on the right path. I hope we can walk awhile together.