I am days away from having a few years clean. I was talking to another guy today who stopped by where I was working, he asked me if I wanted to smoke a joint with him and I said no. We started to talk about the use of drugs and how they affect us. I was describing how I use to make a pipe out of a two liter coke bottle and smoke crack out of it. I was telling him how the bottle would fill up with smoke and I would get ready for a big toke. I could feel myself getting excited about the thought of that toke as I was mimicking the inhale and exhale. Even now after this long the thought of smoking crack still can romanticise me into thinking how great it was. How I would just love that toke.
If I was to have that fantastic toke ( ya right ) I would have had to have spent at least 20 dollars. Within 5 minutes I would be completely messed up. I would be paranoid, guilt ridden, depressed, and within 24 hours broke or dead. I know of a couple of people that after some time of quiting smoked just a little bit and had a heart attack and died.
You are not going to trick me. I am smarted than you give me credit for, but please feel free to keep reminding me how wonderful you are because for every nice thought that you try to lure me back with, I have 10 thoughts of horror to counter you with and to remind me that you are a life wrecker, a life taker, and you have no conscience. I beat you today, better luck tomorrow,
but I wouldn't bet on it!!!!!
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