TIME TO TAKE THE STEPS THAT WILL BRING YOU HOME AGAIN

I wanted to quit doing crack so bad but only when it seemed I hit bottom again. I use to hit bottom alot. It was when I ran out of money or I was so tired from using for a day or longer with no sleep or food. I was always willing to quit when I was down and out but as soon as I had some sleep or I talked my way out of the position I had got myself into off I would go again. God I hated that stuff and what it did to me. Oh god I miss that stuff and what it did to me. You see one of these statements is true but only because I know to play my drug use through.
Do you know that sometimes I get exhausted just thinking about when I use to use. I can remember one thing for instance was the scraping of a pipe. You have no idea how unbelievably crazy that was for me, pulling on the wire that would go into the bowl of the pipe. We called it Brillo and it would cut into my fingers and they would start to bleed but I wouldn't stop, not for a few deep cuts even though my blood was all over everything.
Have I ever told you about the shadows I use to see on the walls. I would think that someone was outside of my window and I wouldn't move, I was so paranoid of everything.
Let me tell you something I don't miss that drug and what it did to me. When its time to sleep I sleep. If I think someone is in my yard they better start running because I am going to introduce them to my newest member to my family and that would be my black Labrador, all 90 lbs of her and pearly white teeth too.
You see there is a normal life for you to live again. You just have to want it bad enough to go for it. Play your drug use through each and every time you feel weak, don't forget that your family loves you and are behind you everyday and seeing the old you coming back but better now.
I am behind you. Take a deep breath right now and then say to yourself this is the day that I am going to quit and take control of my life back again, say it, please won't you just give it a try.
A time for a new start is now. This is the road that your suppose to be on, if you look closely it will look familiar again because its the road that will lead you to your old self again....Welcome back, we've missed you.