A HEART AS BIG AS THE UNIVERSE

Wow how long has it been since I've written anything, Hi everyone. I've missed you.
I am still going strong and still staying clean of that miserable substance crack cocaine. Sometime I forget just where I was in my life when I was on drugs, only to be reminded by others who are in a place in there lives where I was not so many years ago. I don't want to forget, it scares me. One of the most powerful tools that I use is, Playing it through, and how do I play it through if I can't remember what I need to.
We all need to remember what helped us get clean, what finally got us to surrender, to become a functional human being like we were meant to be from the time we were born.
I look at people now a days and see such good in everyone. I read the paper and hear how someone jumped in to help another person who was being attacked or who was in a situation that was life threatening and without a thought put themselves at risk to help. I watch movies that leave me in tears with acts of kindness that have me saying out loud, What a wonderful person, wishing that was me. My heart is so full of love that I don't know what to do with it most times.
I guess what I'm trying to say or want to say is, I think that is an addicts heart. You are so full of hurt that comes from love that we just can't understand why? Why did those things happen to me, why was I treated like that, why don't they love me, and that is why we numbed ourselves with drugs.
Don't ask why anymore, it wasn't your fault and you have the heart of an addict, a heart that is as big the universe. You have the capability to not only get off drugs but to help others. With that heart you can do anything you want.
I love you and I want you to succeed, we people with hearts of lions fight for what we believe in, we fight for others that can't take care of themselves. You are one of gods angels and he needs you now.
Won't you please try and help yourself so that you can help others that don't know what direction to go. You are so strong a person you just have to believe in yourself as I do in you.
I'm going to wake up tomorrow and try and do something nice for a stranger, I don't know what yet but I hope its something that is life changing for them I know it will be for me. I guess what I'm hoping most of all is that I hope that somebody is You.
JUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN ....YOU....