DRUGS AND CHANGE..THE ONLY CHANGE IS DEATH

The reality of relapse is a tough one to understand. I have to be careful of just what I do with my thoughts that enter my head from day to day. I think about the crack that I use to smoke and fantisize about how nice it would be to just have one toke or two or maybe three,,,ya three,,,,no maybe four. Now that I have let myself down and I just lost everything that I have I might as well keep on going right?
As I said in my profile that I am the youngest of nine children I have over twenty nieces and nephews. One of my nieces as I mentioned is in her 1 yr of sobriety. I also have a nephew that is struggling with addiction. He is such a great kid...I mean man. I recently had to pick him up at a bus stop about 30 miles away because he just got kicked out of a recovery house for picking up again. I pulled up to him and realized he was sleeping at a bus stop, his head lifting and dropping from having no sleep for a few days.as I felt pain in my heart for this man that I saw grow up from a baby to where he is in his life now.
I had a chance to talk and asked him how good his relapse was and how it was different this time. He looked at me and said it is the same if not worse than it always was and that he doesn't have too many more left.
I love my nephew and my niece and I told them it doesn't change. The drugs will leave you with absolutley nothing. No money, no job, hungry, and eventually you will die alone, believe me. I told him the next time I see him is to look at him in his open coffin. To tell everybody at his funeral what a great kid he was but that he just couldn't kick his addiction.
It doesn't change, drugs will take everything you have and then it will take your life.
FIGHT, FIGHT WITH EVERYTHING COMMON SENSE YOU HAVE AGAINST THIS DRUG THAT IS TAKING YOUR LIFE AWAY, FROM YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.
You can take your life back again if you really want too..please don't give up.
Nothing changes in the life of an addict but I promise you that it will with getting clean and staying clean. It will get better for you I promise....no more chaos....peace and only a future to look forward too.
Please won't you believe me as I believe in you and get your life back again, it was always yours you just forgot how to take care of it....I BELIEVE IN YOU, I REALLY DO.